I've been busy this summer. Among other things, such as getting ready for going back to school, stayin with my aunt at her place, or even traveling across the nation to visit even more relatives, to see even more people--i've felt a difference between my old-self, my past, and my own failures and regrets. I remember how before I had told myself that I would never regret NEVER CHANGE or NEVER Fail. How dumb was I? To change into someone else--for your own benefit and maturity--happens to all of us brothers and sisters. But the problem was not that. No. The problem was that I was too ambitious, too self-absorbed, and less of trusting in the One who had made me.

I know we all aren't perfect. And sometimes the culture and society of this world gets to us. We get to preoccupied, too busy, and we don't listen. Instead, we say to ourselves that we Love God for what His son has done for us and that we Trust Him, yet do we mean it? I know that I haven't. Honestly, I have failed so many times I thank God for having so much patience. I never knew someone like Jesus who forgave us no matter how deep our imperfections and sins are if only we were willing to turn to it all and turn to Him. But I wasn't doing that at all.

I had placed God on the sidelines so many times this year, no, this summer and I am repaying for it with every tear drop and every effort I can do. Sometimes, I think, we try so hard living a great life, a good life, dedicated for Jesus and for the Lord that we often forget that He WILL always WORK within us. We try too much, I think, in pleasing God and in trying to do things in our own way at the same time trying to distinguish a timeline with HIS plan and OUR OWN plan that we forget that it all doesn't really matter.

I know its hard to let go of our pride, our own ambitions--even if they are good ambitions-- but I often made the same dumb mistake of putting God second. I made the same excuse that it was for my future or that I was doing something good. I forgot to look at it for the Lord's sake. Was it for Him? Was I trying too hard to please Him, to honor Him, to Love Him but forgeting that all I had to do was to ask Him to guide me. Just guide me. That's all I wanted, rite?

But in doing that, do we not lose our trust in the Lord? Do we neglect that His future for us is SOO much better? We can have our own plans, dreams, and future. But the Lord's plan is so much greater, so much more amazing, and so worth it. Our view of life is limited compared to His...and His love for us is So much abundant than we ever so think it might be...so why do we not trust in the Lord so much? Why don't we just let go, go with the flow, trust Him?

It's time to not neglect the Lord's plan for us; it's time to embrace the uncertainty, the unknown, and to finally let go of the fear and the apprehension. I hope the Lord continues to brighten your day, to lift you up, and that we may Always remember that the Lord's understanding and His ways are the Ways we must follow because with Him there is peace.